Small Joys in Troubled Times

After I rescheduled Annie's orthodontist appointment for the 3rd time trying to work it around work, Awana, Monday School, Chinese Kids I was so exasperated, then suddenly an epiphany. What is wrong with me, I have an adult daughter. What a joy to text (the phone call of the new generation) and ask if she had to day off to take her sissy to the "ortho man". Yeah, for small joys in troubled times.

Yesterday Melody cooked dinner, a rather fine dinner too. As I ate my pasta and salad I again gave thanks. What a marvelous joy, that moment when you realize that you've done something right. I had a 14 yr old daughter who could cook a good meal from scratch. I have been truly blessed.

Some days are so cloudy, some days are downright rainy. I'm in a rainy season, but the joy of blessings remain. I don't want to forget small joys in troubled times.

'Cause that's just how I roll

Most people would not know about me that I have trouble making myself make phone calls. That I have anxiety about talking to people. That I often want to just stay home and hide.

I often wonder about the difference between me and the person who progressively gets more afraid of the world and ceases to function.

I have a game I play with myself. If I'm feeling like pulling in and shutting the lid I tell myself. "Heidi, you can read for 1 hr if you will call the homeschool group and get the stuff ready for AWANA. I actually make myself lists and make bargains with myself. I decided a few years back that this was a fairly functional way of dealing with my fears that creep in sometimes.

Do you make bargains with yourself? Well, I do, cause that's just how I roll. :)