Today has been a rough one...This week is 2 yrs since Annie entered the hospital and we began our journey.  I feel such overwhelming sadness and greif today.  It seems that one sadness brings all the rest of them rushing back.  I miss a million things today...I miss how Annie used to run and laugh like other kids.  Her friends have stopped inviting her places because she doesn't feel well.  She cries alone and then puts on her brave face cause she doesn't want me to hurt.
 I miss my kids being young.  I miss my mom, I want to just go to her house and sit beside her.  I miss my dad, because he has a new life and when I'm with him all I can think about is how much I miss my childhood home and family.
 I am sad for my Miss M, these have been difficult years for her.  She is dealing with such sadness...  She has been so hurt by feeling different.  The last few years of homeschooling has taken a toll on her.  She talks about her experiences with other kids, how they totally ignore her and the only times they speak to her is to mock her lifestyle as a "homeschooler" or call her sheltered.  I am grieved, I know her pain and yet she can't imagine that I do.  I remember that part too.  Being a parent breaks your heart in a million little ways.  All we can do is ask the Lord to show us His truth and follow it the best we can.  Heartbreak comes whether we go looking for it or not.  Greif gives way to pure joy.  In sadness we can know peace.