The lonely Mommy

The Mommy

She changed and grew

I became a shadow of who I once was

I saw a light in the distance and the vision grew

I pushed forward toward the light

friends walked together

each of us lighting each others footsteps

encouraging, sharing, laughing

Happy little girls growing

Then changes come as sure as seasons

one by one our paths diverge.

I walk alone

I walk alone slowly with measured step.

The light is still in view

the path is trickier now, no laughter is heard

My path still clear, the vision remains

as tears cloud my way I struggle to embrace this change.

In my mind I hear the echos of things I can't reclaim

the adoring child, a parents unconditional love

the joy of shared lives

the beauty of shared vision

the comfort of closeness in the midst of life's pains.

Tonight I walk alone.

Disclaimer: This is simply an expression of the losses I've experienced over the last couple of years. As I wrote this I realized that my life has been characterized by loss upon loss. The only constant is the vision, the light... at times my boat is swamped and I can't even see the light and I simply walk forward believing in the light.