'Cause that's just how I roll

Most people would not know about me that I have trouble making myself make phone calls. That I have anxiety about talking to people. That I often want to just stay home and hide.

I often wonder about the difference between me and the person who progressively gets more afraid of the world and ceases to function.

I have a game I play with myself. If I'm feeling like pulling in and shutting the lid I tell myself. "Heidi, you can read for 1 hr if you will call the homeschool group and get the stuff ready for AWANA. I actually make myself lists and make bargains with myself. I decided a few years back that this was a fairly functional way of dealing with my fears that creep in sometimes.

Do you make bargains with yourself? Well, I do, cause that's just how I roll. :)